I didn't mean to?

I didn’t mean to?

I didn’t mean to make you so angry

In fact I didn’t even know it was wrong.

I know it started long before I got here,

I’m sure it will outlast me if I’m gone?

I walked in, when the world walked out

I stood by your side, held your hand and watched you cry.

When I needed to scream and shout, I looked around

I realized that I am not you, so I kept my mouth shut.

I buried it deep inside, I pulled on a worn old mask

I put a smile on my face and swore I’d be ok.

Now you get angry because you ask and you ask

And I have no reply, because I spent all those years living inside.

Inside where I couldn’t feel.

But after years and years you’ve chipped down my walls

Now I can’t stand to even pretend that you are not the reason

The reason I decided to take it upon myself,

Because the brain can only focus on one pain at a time

And this takes me away from you.

And in that short time I don’t feel

I don’t feel that I am the reason this all went wrong.

One day I wont be here and where will you be,

What will you do once I’m gone?