Within the Frustration

My body is bruised, broken and bloody

I have blisters continually ripping open,

marley burns that are bleeding and

eyes that will barely stay open.

But there isn't one thing that I

would ever change.

I have spent the last week

sleeping in a hotel, sharing a bed and

a bathroom (with 4-5 other people).

I have laughed my head off by falling and

flying onto uncomfortable mattresses.

Taken midnight walks in the rain,

cried and even laughed from having

sore muscles worked out.

I have woken up in the middle of the night,

freaking out because I forgot Anna was sharing

a bed with me and I thought she was a stranger.

Been scared awake by my alarm,

slept very little.

I have been crammed in a room with 50-60

other dancers just dance with amazing teachers

But not have enough space to fully move.

I have been kicked, stepped on, smacked,

pushed and run over.

I have had to sit out because of my stupid back and foot.

But there is not a moment I would change.

I have been priveledged to share space with dancers

who I will prolly never see again but been blessed just

to see them move. I have been blessed to take

from teachers who have so much knowledge

it could fill the U.S.

I may have not always been able to move as much

or as big as a wanted to, but I have been

inspired beyond belief just to experience.

And I cannot wait to get back into the studio

to dance and to choreograph and to be filled

with the energy that I have spent the last week

sharing with those who share this great passion

that I cannot live without!!

When at first we were deceived

When at first we were decieved ,

we believed everything you had to say.

We believed you... well because you are you.

You've been there since the beginning. You held us when we were scared,

you picked us up when we fell, cleaned our cuts and dried our tears.

You taught us good values and hard work.

You made sure we were respectful to everyone we met.

You taught us not to steal and to work hard for what we wanted.

You spent hours outside in the hot sun, just so we could practice those things we wanted.

You played with us and supported us in our dreams.

You were there on our worst days and our bests.

You kept the bad guys away and taught us to be brave...

but where were you we needed you most? We are not perfect,

we are not always right, we are not always hard working or smart.

But you walked away with no goodbye.

You left us to be brave, when you knew we couldn't be.

You say you never meant for any harm to come to us,

but leaving us was harm in itself.

And you have caused harm to those I love

and as much as I love you, I choose them over you.

My life will go on without you,

Becasue I have learned to be brave on my own

and to teach myself and to stand alone.

When at first we were decieved, we were young,

but now we have grown and have learned,

learned not listen to anything you have to say.