I Hate That You Traded Me

I Hate That YOU Traded Me

I hate how easily you

Forget about our friendship.

I hate how you just assume

That I have moved on, to bigger

And better things.

I hate how little

you actually know me.

I hate that I considered

You family, all of you…

I hate that you ended

Up being exactly like

My family.

I hate how you

Gave up on me.

I hate how YOU

Walked away from me.

I hate and I should

NOT hate…

And yet I still hate, I

Hate how it wasn’t life

That tore us apart…

I hate that it was YOU.

I hate that it was ME…

I hate that I honestly don’t

Know what I did wrong.

I’m sorry, but I am

Who I am…

Overbearing, ocd, awkward,

Sad, sarcastic, I don’t often

Think before I speak, etc…

But I have ALWAYS been

There for you!!

When you were sad,

I did my best to be the friend

To put a smile on your face.

When you hurt, I tried to be

The friend with a shoulder

To cry on.

Who knows maybe I shouldn’t

Have tried so hard…?

I hate that our friendship

Actually means nothing to you.

I hate that I am not stronger,

I hate that I cannot just

Move on with my life.

I hate that you

Traded me.

But most of all…

I hate how much I fear this.

And I hate how much you

Make me fear making a new friend.