Lonely But Safe

The years we’ve spent together

The ups and the downs we’ve seen each other through.

I honestly believed I’d never lose you.

You promised me it wouldn’t happen

And like an idiot… I actually believed you!?!

I know your life is better than mine, I know you’re happy,

I know you’ve moved on.

I know you don’t spend your days worrying.

I trusted you; I even opened my heart and broke down walls for you.

I know you’ll never understand me, or the things I may do.

I sit here quietly as I watch you live your life.

I see the happiness you’ve encountered.

I must admit I am quite jealous of you.

I feel as if I weep for me,

Because of this envy I have of you.

I guess this shouldn’t surprise me…

I’ve spent my life watching people walk away from me.

I’ve always known the lonely life,

I had just thought I had overcome this self destruction…

I wish you the best of luck as I retreat back into myself,

Where I know it is safe…

But here I know that no one will leave me!!