Live

If we fear what lies beyond where the sidewalk ends, then how do yo live... it is here that you make your own path.

The Man That Did Call

I climbed out of bed and walked down the hall,
I turned on the light as I heard someone call;
"I wouldn't look into that thing on the wall, it's full of pictures...
they're big and they're small."
So I shut off the light and retraced my steps toward
the man that did call,
hoping there would be nothing there in case I should fall.
As I rounded the corner,
I saw a small man carrying a large haul.
I asked him; "what is wrong with those images I almost saw,
coming from that mirror on the wall?"
He said: "while beauty is captivating, it is most
certainly our most dangerous flaw."

Material

I hate to inform you,
but only material things can be replaced with an exact copy...
Things that aren't material have to be repaired the old fashioned way,
from the inside out.

Sleep Writing

Being very far away,

Is harder than I say.

Just keep in your head,

As you lay in a foreign bed,

We will always be here,

Whether you are far or near.

Walk tall, walk proud,

Never fear an oncoming crowd.

You have brains in your head and shoes on your feet,

Remember that this is no easy feat.

And though you feel weary,

I will always send you cheery.

We are not friends, so let that rest,

Being family is better than best.

One day we will gather,

And talk of things that matter.

So for now I say goodbye,

But soon it will be “O Hi”!!

Find

I take a deep breath as I try to calm my racing heart.

I see the sun has dipped below the trees,

And I find myself alone… again.

Every passing car I pray is you.

Every rustling leaf flashes your face in my mind.

As the night grows stronger, I realize you’re not coming.

I wonder,

Why have you not come for me?

I wonder,

Do you not speak my name?

Does your heart not question that emptiness within?

Or does is not feel it at all?

I guess though, this place is not unknown…

It has a familiarity of loneliness to it.

The question is…

Do I sit and wait, for you to come find me…

Like some prince charming?

No, I have my doubts of you being some prince charming…

You slaying dragons or climbing towers,

Does not seem logical to me…

So I guess it will come down to me…

Fighting to find you…?

I remember that feeling… of not feeling

I remember the day when I lost it all.

I remember not feeling,

Yet knowing exactly how it feels when your heart breaks.

I remember that feeling… of not feeling.

I remember hearing those words.

Those words that caused my heart to break.

I remember not being given a choice.

I remember watching my dreams, being ripped from my hands.

I remember my world spinning out of control.

And then I remember the feeling of my heart breaking.

I remembered my heart.

My heart that is strong, resilient, brave, happy, stubborn, grateful…

But mostly full of life.

And because of my heart, I refused to let you take it all.

And because of God’s good grace, he helped me back on my feet.

He gave me a second chance.

And with this second chance, I promise I will not let you down.

I am not perfect.

I am not even great.

I am just ok…

All I can do is be grateful, and work hard.

I will forever know that feeling of not feeling.

I will never forget what it felt like when my heart broke.

I will never forget, because I feel.

Because I refused to let you take my heart away.

I am here because I was given a second chance.

This second chance to share what gives me life,

What moves my soul.

All because I feel.

Let Me Be...

You held my hand,

You promised you’d never let go.

You looked me straight in the eye

And told me you loved me.

You were there when I needed you most.

When the world walked out,

You somehow snuck back in.

You became my security and I finally felt safe.

You filled this gap inside of me…

I finally felt whole.

Yet for some reason, you never

Found it in yourself to support my dreams.

When it was my turn to look you in the eyes…

I couldn’t.

I couldn’t, because my love for you was not the same.

And then one day you told me you were leaving.

I still don’t agree with what you’ve chosen,

Simply because your decision came from your boredom.

But I let you go, without words.

You asked if I’d still be here,

I asked you to leave me be…

Why can’t you please just listen!?!

I cannot handle my head and heart running…

Running at full speed in opposite directions.

I’m asking that if you truly love me,

Then please just let me be!!